My mother. From my memory she was a // Strong women // A fierce teacher // Who always shout at us // Discipline my brother // Hold my hands tight when cross the road, make me want to let go. // Tie my hair so tight I hates it // She cried when she rotan us // Loud voice can hear from far // Loves to talk // She get stress when she dunno how to use Microsoft word or excel and she cried // Quarrel with my dad // Bring us to Christmas party // Loves to eat junk food // Who works hard for us
And today. She look like this after been sick with high blood pressure, diabetes, minor stroke and now kidney failure. How sad to see my mum from a strong and loud women then changed to a person who can't speak well and weak. We used to hate her why shout so loud! Why speak so loud! How embarrassing! But slowly when she spoke less, we asked her why you don't speak more? Why you don't exercise? Why u still eat junk food?
Her weight used to be 70-80kg but now she left 50kg. Her body become skinny day by day. She can't stand firm, she fell a lot, her skin becomes very dry, she feels pain all over her body, she speaks very slow. I was asking hubby. Do you remember when my mom started to sick? I can't quiet remember and that's mean she been sick for long time. We flash back and remember she started to sick when I went to KL for studies and that was 11 years ago.
When she hit by minor stroke on 2013 she don't do exercise, doesn't eat well, still eat junk food. We tried our best to encourage her and stop her from unhealthy diet but dad is the one who says "it's ok, just let it be". Honestly we do blame them, why not take care of yourselves when everyone already try the best to help you! We frustrated, angry, sad, disappointed and now we dunno what we can do anymore.
This was when she fell on her face. A lot more details but I can't remember or write them all here. My sister and father is the main person who take care of her. Carry her up and down, help her shower, clean her stool, cook for her etc. Now that I'm pregnant and brother work far from KK. My dad and sis do most of it. I know they sacrifice a lot a lot. My sister still jobless. She can work in KL and stay with the BF but she choose to come back to take care my mum.
Today is the 4th day she staying in hospital due to her leg in pain she cannot walk. Doctor still finding the cause. Is also the 4th day my dad and sis need to take turn overnight in hospital. Please keep my mum in prayer, wisdom for doctors and strength for my dad and sister. That's my prayer every morning. I believe God has the plan. What is the most expensive thing in the world? I say it's LOVE & HEALTH.